100 Days

What I ate today

Breakfast (9:30 a.m.)
2 slices of multi grain bread
1 can of tuna
2 servings of fat free mayo
Calories: 270
Fat: 2.5 grams

Lunch (12 p.m.)
2 weight watchers dinners (macaroni and cheese and some sort of lasagna thing)
Calories: 510
Fat: 6.5 grams

Dinner (6 p.m.)
1 Subway chicken teriyaki sub
Calories: 740 (wow, didn’t think it was that high)
Fat: 10 grams

Snack (9:30 p.m.)
2 chicken filets
Calories: 200
Fat: 2 grams

Total Calories: 1,720
Total fat: 21 grams

Exercise: None. Well, I did walk around at a track meet for three hours. So I guess I burned some calories doing that.

So let’s examine today’s menu. I ran out of oatmeal, so I had to have tuna for breakfast. I like tuna, so we’re good there.

When I had some sort of weird craving at lunch, I decided to get some weight watchers dinners. Now, am I condoning having two of those in one sitting? No. However, I am not upset with the results at all. Out of Lean Cuisine, Healthy Choice and Smart Ones (the weight watchers dinners), Smart Ones seems to be lowest in calories and fat. So that’s good. Plus the lasagna bolognese is pretty good. Combined, the two dinners came to 510 calories and 6.5 grams of fat. Not bad for a meal.

For dinner, I went to Subway again. Four days in a row. I swear it is addictive. I am having a hard time shaking it because it is the one thing I regularly convince myself of doing every day. However, I think Subway has definitely retarded the weight loss process in a way. Since I get a footlong with extra pickles and olives, I have to think that there is a mountain of sodium in those sandwiches. Sodium, as we know, retains water. I did a decent job of staying away from Subway last week, and I lost a lot of weight (if you’ll remember, I got scared.) I think it was that loss of sodium on a regular basis. Just a hunch. However, let me also say again that this weight loss wouldn’t have been possible without Subway. So I guess it’s a give and take. But I probably have overdone it. I think it best if I stay away for a few days. That might be easier on my bank account, too.

Then I had some old fashioned protein for a nighttime snack. I think I did ok today. However, there are some things I did wrong.

First, Subway and diet dinners should never happen on the same day. The idea behind those things is to quench an urge for something fatty. They both do very well in their quest. However, the reality of the situation is that they tend to be higher in calories and fat than I would like. So they need to be rationed. That means I can’t do both on the same day. And preferably, neither one should happen more than once a week (except Subway, which should happen no more than twice a week.).

Also, if you’ll notice the times, I went six hours between lunch and dinner. That’s no good. But you know, that will happen sometimes. However, in recent days I have been eating about three times a day, often with large breaks in between. I attribute this to the fact that the fridge contains nothing but spoiled vegetables.

That, however, brings us to a new problem. I spent money on these vegetables, but I didn’t eat them. This has happened before. After I go shopping I tend to eat the good thing first (deli meat, cereal, cereal bars, fruit). Then I eat Subway for a few days and then the salad stuff goes bad and I end up wasting money. So, what I fucking need to make a habit of is eating salads while the lettuce is still green. I can’t stress that enough.

See, I bring you these problems as an answer to a problem that is clear to me. I am taking this diet less and less seriously. I understand my own psyche: Success gives me an excuse to go back to bad habits. It is a terrible way to think and I need to extinguish it as quickly as possible. I can already see the path back to eating shitty. It isn’t pretty. The words “lifestyle change” will now be dispersed randomly into each blog entry because I have to constantly remind myself that I’m in this for the long haul.

Can’t go back. Must not go back. Won’t go back.

Lifestyle change.

By the way, I want to clarify what I said last week about posting only three times per week. I think I am going to change that. Let’s do this. I will definitely post Monday, Wednesday and Friday and will more than likely post Tuesday and Thursday. However, if I think there is nothing new that I can add during one of the Tuesday/Thursday posts, I probably won’t. But I will also do my best to at least post a food journal those days. Those, however, will not be posted to blogcritics.