100 Days

What I ate today

Breakfast (10 a.m.)
2 serving of cottage cheese
2 Special K snack bars
Calories: 270
Fat: 6 grams

Lunch (12:30 p.m.)
1 Healthy Choice smoked Sausage
2 slices of multi grain bread
1 serving of fat free mayo
Calories: 385
Fat: 9.75 grams

Snack (4 p.m.)
1 stick of beef jerkey
Calories: 120
Fat: 2 grams

Dinner (7 p.m.)
4 chicken filets
3 low fat tortilla shells
1 serving of Just 2 Good bleu cheese
Calories: 350
Fat: 6 grams

Total calories: 1,125
Total fat: 23.75 grams

Exercise: 40 minutes on the elliptical trainer. Burned 740 calories.

I told myself I would not look at the scale until Friday. That was a steadfast rule. I didn’t want to be encouraged or discouraged by the results. I figured I could just weigh in Friday and be satisfied with whatever result I got.

Goddamn that new digital scale at the gym. It got me today.

I got on that fucking thing after my elliptical workout. It was there, I was bored, it looked so fun. This was the same scale, by the way, that gave me the 310 reading last week and then gave me the 306 reading Friday. Since it is just out of the box, I have to figure it to be pretty accurate.

So I went for it. I took my shoes off and weighed in.

301.

That’s good. That’s really good. Now, after a 40 minute cardio workout, I imagine that was a bit lower than the actual truth, but remember, Friday I won’t be weighing in until after an identical 40 minute workout. Also, last Thursday (at 306) I weighed in after a cardio workout. So I like the 301 reading.

So that builds some added tension going into Friday. Can I get under 300 pounds? If I do, I might actually cry. I might hug whoever is next to me (please be a hot chick). And if I do, I will almost certainly be back over 300 pounds by Monday. Indeed, I do not expect to weight under 300 when I get back from my weekend adventure in Colorado Springs.

But, you see, this time is different than the others. This time 300, while a landmark, is just a number. When I get hammered in Colorado Springs this weekend, I will not be celebrating getting under 300 pounds. I will be celebrating the end of a very successful 100 day life altering quest. While I won’t be able to celebrate 100 pounds in 100 days, I will celebrate the fact that the 100 pound mark isn’t far off at all. I will celebrate success in a major area of my life.

It will be a party of triumph, because I’ll know that now 100 pounds isn’t a goal, but a formality. I’ll be enjoying spirits like winners do. The spoils, because new thoughts have entered my mind, thoughts that would have only been wishes last Christmas. Now I am thinking past 100 pounds. Maybe 130. 140. 150? Where will it stop? That is the only question I can’t answer right now.

But as for 100 pounds, that is a question that I feel has already been answered.