100 Days

What I ate today

Breakfast (10:30 a.m.)
1 apple
Calories: 80
Fat: 0 grams

Lunch (12 p.m.)
2 ounces of roast beef
2 ounces of turkey
1 can of Hormel chili, turkey, no beans
2 servings of lowfat cottage cheese
Calories: 590
Fat: 12 grams

Snack (3 p.m.)
2 ounces of roast beef
Calories: 100
Fat: 2 grams

Dinner (7:30 p.m.)
1 Subway chicken breast sub
Calories: 640
Fat: 10 grams

Total calories: 1,410
Total fat: 24 grams

Starting weight on Jan. 4: approx. 370 pounds
Weight last week: 325 pounds
Weight this week: 325 pounds
Weight lost to date: approx. 45 pounds

Exercise: 40 minutes on elliptical, upper body workout.

There is a new, though fairly minor, problem brewing. It seems that one of my bad habits is creeping into my routine again.

It used to be that I would polish off an inordinate amount of food in one sitting, then forage for more food in a quest for a never-ending gorging.

Well now, I am finishing off sensible portions of food and then foraging for something even more sensible, which ultimately makes the entire meal not sensible at all.

I did it yesterday at dinner, finishing two sandwiches and a can of chili, then heading to the kitchen for a bowl of cereal. Today I finished my lunch and then went to the fridge for some cottage cheese.

I don’t see this as a major problem right now, considering that my caloric intake was pretty dead on today, but I think it is something that needs to be stopped. I must control my portions and spread the calories out over the entire day. That is key. Not too long ago there was an entire day that was blown up by the exact same thing. I finished Subway for lunch and then, in an instant, was eating a Healthy Choice smoked sausage. After that 900 calorie lunch I decided to take the rest of the day off (brilliant reasoning).

So obviously we are dealing with a potentially dangerous situation here. Though, I am not too worried about it. It’s all about mind control. I need to think about my portions before I eat them. I must plan out ahead of time when my next meal will be and what I will eat. These are minute, but important, details that will ultimately mean success or failure. I’ve got the big picture down pat, no problem. Now the trick is tailoring this diet in a way that works best for both my urges and my body.

In a way it is kind of like starting all over again. I’ve effectively reduced the number of calories in my diet, which was a gigantic first step. Now I have to make sure I ingest those calories in the most effective way possible. And I am realizing that that might actually be more difficult than the first step.

Today’s weigh in made me very happy. The scale actually read 326, but I drank a liter of water about 15 minutes before. So I gave myself the extra pound and decided that 325 was probably more accurate. That means that I held steady over the last week or two of crappy eating. I was worried that I was around 330, which would have been bad. I dreamt that I was around 320, which would have been very good. But in reality, I stayed the same, which is very much acceptable.